Thursday, September 30, 2004

Sometimes I wonder

When thinking about being foolish for God I have recently been wondering if dropping school would be a really foolish thing. I have enjoyed the information and it has been more than useful in my job however it just seems like I am not suppose to be there. This is something I am going to continue to be praying about. It just doesn't seem like it would be a good thing to do. It would allow me to focus more on the youth ministry and the VLI class, but I just don't know. I will right more later, I have to go to class.

Thursday, September 16, 2004

There is hope

Last night, youth was very encouraging. Encouraging because I could see God moving/speaking in a majority of them. I had the opportunity to pray for one of them last at the end of the night when opportunity for ministry arised. I let God move for a while and asked later what was being felt or why he was up there for prayer. He was saying that he wanted God to "stop the Pain." He felt like he needed to surrender. As he was talking he had tears in his eyes. This was genuine. There is nothing like ministering to this generation. While I was praying, I saw Gods hand all over this individual, a heart like I could not believe. It was amazing. God is on the move.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Reminders of the "true" found joy

New found joy, that is what it is called when we come to our father God. But lately I have been reminded to come back to this "true joy." Last night there was a teaching at Grace about dying to ourselves daily (coming from 1 Corinthians chapter one about "taking up your cross"). Lately I have been drifting away due to a lack of trust. However it didn't last long. It is amazing when God does not let me drift away too long. This time it was only a couple days and to him I am extremely grateful. I was just feeling distant and my goals kind of were non existence putting me into an apathetic spiritual mentality. However a couple of Christs great paradox's were extremely encouraging and helped me to realize that I need to lose my life, die to myself so that Christ is lifted. Not only will Christ be exalted but I will receive life because, Paul in his letter to the Corinthians reminds us that we have to lose our lives in order to receive "true life." So right now I am asking God to show me what that means in my life. Lord I want to lose my life so that I can gain what you truly desire for me. I have confidence that your plans are best.

Friday, September 10, 2004

The Ultimate Romancer

Listen to me my child. There is more to this life.
There is more than the countless days of education.
There is more than the drive of a successful life.
There is more than the relationships that are evident in life.
If you can only see that there is so much more.
Listen to me my child, your ears have grown distant to recognizing my voice,
I hear your voice loud and clear, do you hear mine?
Please, be able to still yourself and slow down a bit, I bet you will hear me then.
My child, do you love me? Please, I strongly desire to spend more time with you.
Do you want to spend time with me? Why do you busy yourself so, do you even care?
My child, I love you more than you can ever know, I want to be with you. Just listen to me, take some time.
All of the your cares I have already taken care of, all of your worries I have in my hands.
Remember, I love you and I want to be the most important part of your life.
You are the most important part of mine.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Wow its been a long time since I've been on here

Life is going good. In the swing of things at ASU. I am taking 14 credit hours and all of my classes are very enjoyable. God is doing some awesome things in my life. Testing my trust, building my confidence and increasing my inner peace. The past couple weeks has been a major test of trust. It has been difficult but at the same time very good. God is slowly equipping me to be thinking with kingdom thoughts as I am at school, meaning that he is starting to guide me in who I need to be reaching out to or serving. It is exciting but at the same time pretty frightening. Frightening because left alone I am not the extrovert. This is one thing you guys could pray for. I strongly desire this because all of my life I have been very much concerned with the approval of others, "God forbid that I be persecuted or rejected!!!" But deep inside I want to develop Christ's character more, and Christ was rejected many times. I look at my life, and I have not been rejected too often. Thinking about you guys. Luke, I am praying for you over there.