Tuesday, May 24, 2005

what, a day to be lazy?

Today has been one of those days so far, one that I am actually having time to be be lazy. I always feel guilty when these days happen. It is almost like I am not allowed to have a lazy day. So when I woke up this morning instead of starting my day like I usually do with a list of things to do I just watched Blue Crush on USA. It was a pretty good movie, when it came out I did not want to see it, but it was alright. So after that I slowly got ready to start my day. Meeting with Ben today at starbucks, always enjoy our times together.
Got to go.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Fairly successful day

Today was productive. Went to our thursday morning prayer with other college group leaders/pastors. God spoke through everyones prayers an encouragement of love amongst believers. Was able to meet Rob, and Ryan who are two other awesome college group leaders, great opportunities for more mentors. When I got home I had a great avocado omlete and vacuumed/dusted shelves, shutters. In preparation for my sisters grad party saturday. After cleaning, I dug right into studying. That is one thing I have been able to discipline myself more in is getting my studying done. In VLI, we read a ton. I got a tremendous amount out of it. We are reading in 1 Chronicles right now and what really got me was the part when David prays for his people and prays for Solomon his son who will be the King during the rebuilding of God's temple. At least I think that is accurate. Yes even myself can get mixed up in my history. His prayer encouraged me as a leader to impart and bless others for gods work, or completion of work. I so desire to see more leaders emerge and to be able to bless them in their service to the Lord. Specifically for our college group. Lord let it be. After reading a good amount, I quickly got ready for work.
Teaching my teens for my resistance training class is so much fun. Currently I have three athletes who are taking my class. Today was only the second day, and the ease of teaching them is so great. I can't wait to equip them more so that they can become better athletes. And the three guys are so cool. Two of them are christian (I found out about that because, in my introduction of myself I couldn't help speak about who I am), and they said with a smile "so are we". All three of them are just so respectful and fun to be around. And I have only been around them 2 hours. The best of all is that they are interested. They are interested in all I have to say. The influence is amazing. I love it.
And to end it all, I am relaxing which is well deserved after all that was accomplished today. Thank you Lord for motivation

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Morning Devotion

Wow, that was a much needed time. It has been a while since I have been able to sit before God without a bible in my hands and just listen. I took a walk to our neighborhood park and sat in the grass under one of the trees. This is what I heard this morning...
Do you see all the different shades of green?, I did that. Do you feel the coolness of the wind on your face?, that is me. Do you hear the birds all around?, that is my song for you. Do you smell the sweat aroma all around?, that is what I smell like.

I was in awe, that was just a wonderful, peaceful, enjoyable time. Again like I said it has been a while since I have been able to enjoy God and his presence. I still am on a peace high, and that is my prayer is that I would experience his peace more. It sounds so simple but it is so true. I didn't take my own thoughts into my devotion I let God bring peace to my mind and let him drive my thoughts. It was beautiful.

Thank you father for a wonderful morning.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Late Night thoughts

It is funny how God calls us to certain tasks that seem out of our league. To be a servant in leadership is a task that seems exciting but at the same time frightening. Knowing that God will help, but at the same time having only the slightest idea. Feelings of inadequacy like that of Moses. He could not speak very well in front of people. I too sometimes feel unable to speak in front of people. All of my life I have been very reserved, not very outspoken, loud, or one screaming for the needed attention. I look at other teachers and leaders and I see them bold, stoic, confident, well spoken, powerful, passionate. I want to be able to do that. Moses was able to do that, Why? Because he relied on the one who could transform his personality at least temporarily. Is it only a temporary change?, possibly, but all I know is that I desire that change. I want to be free to enjoy serving as a leader, I want to speak confidently, boldly, with power.
I also want to see others following in the same path. We need more outspoken, loving, passionate, non compromising, confident, powerful Christians that are willing to lay their whole life down to follow Christ.
Lord let your will be done.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Frustrating

Today was the most frustrating day I have ever experienced. I have been dealing with a very hard weekend and beginning of the week and then to top it off today happens. I did not get any studying in and I am feeling a little behind. With a little stress, I go to work and find out that 3 of my hours have been cut. It is just so frustrating that for all that I give over at work and how it is just so easy to cut hours just because of budget. I still have a lump in my throat. But that is not what has been topping me off. I once again have just had a hard week. I am tired. Ready for a change. School, VLI, Work, pressures of leading the college group, the previous three have been a long road. All very demanding. It doesn't help when I am not connecting with God very well. I am running short on patience, love, giving. I have been noticing all of the negative things as well. I thought I would never say this, but I am sick of always being the one to be nice and ok with things. At least today that is how I am feeling, especially after today. I am tired of saying its alright that my hours are cut and it seems like I am taken advantage of, I am tired of saying well God will take care of it, no problem. And yes I know that is a bad attitude and that God is in control, but I can't help how I am feeling. I am running very low. I need some prayer guys, I have big problems too. This is a very hard time. The enemy is trying to hit me at every angle.

So with this guys, please try to love even when you don't feel like it.
be patient when you don't have any at all. Give even when you are tired of giving. please don't let your negative attitudes over take you. When your world feels like its falling apart, don't forget God or else the enemy will take advantage of it.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Things of God

Today was a great day filled with things of God. This morning I got up at 7 in the morning to meet with Pat from Grace Community Church and discusses things that God has been doing in our lives and pray for each other. It was a neat time together by ASU. After that I went to Jamba juice waiting for a phone call, which would let me know if my dad was done with his dental surgery. This was a nice time to read my book, "Developing a Vision for the ministry in the 21st century." After taking my Dad back home, I was finally able to study more than 2 hours and enjoy it. I finished reading what I needed to read today. It felt so good. With that I went into work with a different attitude. I have been praying for a better attitude at work because it can get boring if you are not looking at it from Gods perspective. So praise God I was able to do that today. My kids were fun today. I was able to teach with excitement. And its funny because the source was all of the good things of God today.
-Lord I pray for our college group, help us deepen our relationship for you so that we might be more effective for you and your kingdom. I ask that we would lay all of our burdens at your feet and let you take complete control of our lives. I pray for strength for those who are weak, I pray for joy for those who are down, I pray for confidence for those who are insecure, I pray for patience for those who are not hearing your direction, I pray for trust and peace for those who are having difficulty, I pray against the lies and tempations, Lord you only give us what we can handle, I pray that we run to you.
I pray for all of the lost in our lives. Soften their hearts and give us the confidence and boldness to be You to them. Lord I ask that there would be a revival in our own hearts. Transform us.

Love you guys

Monday, May 02, 2005

Freedom

This is a poem that I found by a girl named Sorren... I don't know if she wrote it or if she got it from somebody else. but it spoke to my heart.


I Wish I Knew How It Would Feel To Be Free-Lighthouse Family

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
I wish I could say all the things that I should say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

I wish I could share
All the love that's in my heart
Remove all the bars that keep us apart
And I wish you could know how it FEELS to be me
Then you'd see and agree that every man should be free

I wish I could be like a bird in the sky
How sweet it would be if I found I could fly
Well I'd soar to the sun and look down at the sea
And I'd sing cos I know how it feels to be free

I wish I knew how it would feel to be free
I wish I could break all the chains holding me
And I wish I could say all the things that I wanna say
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear
Say 'em loud say 'em clear
For the whole wide world to hear

One love one blood
One life you've got to do what you should
One life with each other sisters, brothers
One love but we're not the same
We got to carry each other
Carry each other
One One One One One...

I knew how it would feel to be free
I knew how it would feel to be free

Sunday, May 01, 2005


The Idea


Drawing copy of Arm